Bad Ugly Habbits!

On my last post I talked about drugs and how they kill.. Neglecting my own habbit and its nasty ugly and long term it kills! God this habbit sucks so bad I have tried all these things to quit!
1) Cold turkey - that didn't last long
2) Patches - 4 months.. smoked again shortly after I quit using patch
3) Zyban - 9 months was a pretty good sucess.. until the hoildays! :(
4) Gum - Made me totally sick!!!!

Things I haven't tried yet to quit... would include many methods.. a few I thought might work..

1) Tie me to a chair only let me eat and use the bathroom for a month.
2) Move me to a cabin out in the middle of no where.
3) Lock me in a church!
4) Close all tabacco factories.
5) Give me a million dollars if I quit for over 1 year - I figure if I can kick the habbit for 1 year I am not going to go back to it!

Honestly I am hopeless with this I really do want to quit and I have several times I will take any advice on what I need to do to quit.
It makes me sick to know I am poisioning my body every day and I don't have the will power to just stop doing it. I am weak I know so don't bother telling me that in a comment.. I KNOW I AM WEAK AND I NEED TO JUST DO IT!

I mean seriously what would I miss? Smelling like an ashtray? WoW yeah that's something to really miss.. NO I am not afraid I will get fat.. I have no "fears of quitting" nothing scares me about it.. so yeah thats not the reason I keep doing it... Oh.. it must be the nicotine..
AND why can't I sue the tabbaco companies? When I started smoking there was no warning labels saying "IF YOU SMOKE THIS YOU WILL GET ADDICTED THEN DIE!!" *sighs*

Anyways leave me your commemnts that might help me stop tricks of the trade.. or what even gave you the strenght to stop smoking I really need to hear it some pointers something please!!

Don't bother telling what kind of loser I am because I smoke yadda yadda I don't want to hear it and it wont encourage me to stop just because you think I suck! k.thnx.

heh ok chow
x
Babs!

Pissed on Pills!

In the past 2 years I have known more people to die then the whole other 37 years I have been alive! None of these deaths have been by a car wreck, poor health, nor anything else I would call "natural or by accident". Saddly to say most of the people dying are youths or very young adults..

The deal is this :
Perscription drugs seem to be the drug of choice these days. From what I am seeing the drugs that are being abused are Xanax's, Oxys, Methdone, Loretabs and many alike pills.

Who's to blame? I could point that to many directions instead of pointing fingers to Doctors for over perscribing, or the pharmaceuticals for making such shit or parents for not being more aware and even to the person who has died for making such poor decisions with their lives I'd rather just point out that "We have a problem!"

In this year alone I have known at the very least 5 people that has passed away usually from a mixture of Methdone and Xanax's.

Now you might be sitting there saying "All my friends are too smart for this.. Or Thats just because your friends are all drug addicts"

Quite the contrary your wrong - At least 3 people I knew that passed away this year I had no idea they even took any type of drug. 2 of them were friends from when I went to high school and 1 of them I baby sitted for when she was younger.

PEOPLE YOU SHOULD BE OUTRAGED!!!
THIS IS NOT the "same ol' drug problem as usual"
THIS IS NOT like it was when the hippies were out getting high and having free love!
THIS is shit that's legal - made in a lab and perscribed..
THIS is suppose to be a "controled substance" when in fact its out of control!

I bet I could start a list of names here of people I alone knew that died from drug overdoses due to people taking percription pills either by illegal sale or that was perscribed to them and they mixed it with other pills or over dosed on it and died. Then added people in this community alone that I didn't know but know they died from taking some kind of perscription drugs. Then you could add to this list and I garentee you .. the list would never end.

People are using these for "fun" to get "high" they don't hesitate they don't think they will die...
"We are just having fun.. gettin' high!"
In reality they are playing Russian Rolette!

The sad thing is:
Truely there is nothing being done about this.
So I felt the need to bitch about it!
It just makes me sick America is losing so many of their young people due to perscription drugs rather then are obtained legally or illegally, and it seems nothing really is being done about it.

Like here they are still way worried about pot, herion, crystal meth and kind of ignoring that most of the people dying in this community is from persciption.
I mean its totally sad when an armed robber goes in to the local CVS to rob the pharmist of all their oxies.

Any how give me your feedback yes I want to hear it!
Here's a short educational video about drugs if your interested in watching!

Hey!

I decided to start this blog after checking out my girl Dena's.. she always some how with out trying talks me into doing silly things!

However - I will take this with the up most serious-ness =)

I'm sure I'll have alot to rant about because so much in this world pisses me off!

But I am also sure I'll have some fun things on here for you to view :D~

So .. Stay tuned.. for more action... later :P

PS.
Is the writer's guild still on strike?